My first love broke up with me suddenly. Need advice what to do now?

hun, what you just described are symptoms of a broken heart. Most of us have experienced a broken heart and it is extremely painful. The memories, the belief you will never love anyone else, the hope for reconciliation keeps one from moving forward, the never ending feelings of rejections, the cycle goes on and on seeming like an endless sea of despair. But the truth is, regardless of how you feel today there is light at the end of the tunnel and you will get over it. I do not want to offer false hope to you because it appears as if she did not value nor share the same feelings that you have for her. As difficult as it may seem, the best thing you can do is to let her go. Let your pride and dignity guide you through this. Get therapy or even join a support group so that you can vent and let your feelings out. Talk to friends and family members who will love and support you through this difficult time. I know this is not what you wanted to hear, but what else can you do? She has not made any attempts to call you, not even to pay you back the money she owes you. This says a lot towards her character. She is not what you have paved her out to be, and you deserve a girl who will honor honestly and love you the way you want to be loved. My heart goes out to you and send you a prayer that you will overcome this because I believe you will. Good luck to you!