How can I feel better?

I think you should go to college if your not already in and focus on getting a good career and stop worrying about relationships because you've been through a lot of bad ones so try and have fun gradually talk to people and you eventually meet some good people but don't feel a need to rush into a relationship don't be like OMG I have to have 30 friends or a boyfriend because I have gone through a lot of your experiences and I just found things to do that made me happy and focused on the important things in life career goals etc. and I know a lot of people but I only really have 2 true friends and you will eventually find that and be happy you just gotta stay positive and it will all come naturally you don't have to completely open up to people but you have to try and talk a little if you want friends, start slow and gradually build up and after a while you will be able to tell who is sincere and who is really not your friend.